I know I haven't posted anything on here in a very long time, Christa, but I make sure everytime that I do get on any computer this is the very first thing I check. I still think about you everyday, but lately I've just been having a really hard time and I've been missing you more and more even though you've been gone over 16 months it feels like its only been a week. I went off post today and spent over $50 on cds and movies most of which remind me of you not to mention the dozens of songs already on my laptop that remind me of you. I walked about a mile with my best friend here to get dinner tonight and the whole way we talked about you and it made me feel a little better, but I still miss you. I haven't been to church since Christmas Eve. I try to go, I plan on it every weekend but when the time comes to go I just have no motivation to go. I do try to pray every night and I feel like it helps a little bit. I graduate on the 3rd from my Army training here at Ft Gordon then I just have to get my wisdom teeth pulled and I can go to Ft Bragg. Hopefully, because I had some of the highest grades in my class, I might be able to go home for 2 weeks, or at least take leave for the Race for Hope (which by the way your team is almost at the $20,000 mark already!). I passed my PT Test that I was freaking out about but I got 1 or 2 more when I get to Ft Bragg. It looks like theres a very strong possiblity that im spending my 21st birthday in the Middle East, but I don't really mind that much. I'm not scared because I know everything happens for a reason and that you'll be there watching over me. I just wish things can go back to the way they used to be. I think thats why I've been missing you so much lately; I'm about to start a brand new chapter in my life and that I wish you could be here to share it with me. I just really wanted to say that I love you Christa and I still miss you more than you'll ever know
Jon Cecilio